Fri 23rd March

so much for all this shit. as Spencer (one of the people I thought would be most offended) said to me today.. people make mistakes.. I guess this one makes up for all the mistakes I never made in the past.

as if my opinion carries any weight that's worth anything anyway.. words don't mean shit.. i should know since i write shitty lyrics to start with. If someone told me I was a crap singer.. i think i'd actually go to singing lessons.. i wouldn't mind some singing lessons actually.. and i should really get some more guitar lessons.. and if someone told me that, i wouldn't take it to heart. or try not to, but i know i wouldn't dislike the person for their opinion..bcos in the end, it would probably help me more than anything. It's not like I got anything out of writing the 'review', apart from enemies, and losing friends (if infact they are lost - or just don't want to be associated with me, i dont know)

my mum says i'm out spoken.. and I'd never really thought about it. I'm generally outspoken to people i know very well.. and they're generally out spoken too.

but anyway.. I don't really care anymore, what's done is done. why does Adelaide have to be so fucking small..

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not much exciting has happened since the last journal.. just general hate mail and more tears.

but all opinions aside, i'm still pretty surprised at certain people's reactions.. especially people i stuck by in similar situations with the same group of people.. except instead of being opinion based, was more personal issues.

Last night Nick wore a badge which said "Bitch Turd from Hell" or something.. I giggled and said 'I need one of those',.. and everyone got the joke. most of the kids don't really have problems with me.. or they don't know.. one or the other.

thanks to the kids who don't care about this shit.. Aliese & Jess especially :) ni shi wo de nu ren. thanks for just being my friend. and thankyoup Amanda, Ianto and Spencer.. Effie and Nick.. you kids rock.

hopefully next journal entry I will be back to normal.. hey did i mention the doctor says i've got asthma?